Some of you have probably heard this story like 3 times but it’s my story so just shhh.
The first Taylor Swift song I ever heard in my life was Teardrops On My Guitar when I was 13 in 2006…and I hated it. With so much passion I hated it. I hated it until I hated it so much that it became obsession and obsession turned into listening to it and listening to it turned into loving it - and then I heard Tim McGraw, and then I heard Cold As You - which was the game changer as you all KNOW. So I got her album for my birthday and then I got her Christmas album and I was content and that was that. I liked Taylor Swift.
The obsession didn’t kick in until I was 14 years old. You know how some people say that when they see a certain band or a certain artist live for the first time, when they walk out of that stadium or that venue, they’re a completely different person from who they were before? And nothing would ever be the same? Well that happened to me when I was 14 and saw Taylor Swift live in person for the very first time, and she only played one song - and yet nothing, and I mean nothing, was ever the same after that night. That show happened the Summer before Fearless was released and it was only days after that show that she released Love Story as a single and if you ask anyone in my family they will tell you that Love Story was the only song I listened to for 2 weeks. After the two week mark I am almost positive it had hundreds and hundreds of plays and when we moved out of house in New York the last thing I did was write the lyrics to Love Story on my living room wall.
When we moved to Montana I thought there would be Taylor Swift fans everywhere and I thought she would DEFINITELY come to Montana - but there really weren’t that many and she never did. Fearless came out that November; my freshman year of high school in a brand new state and a brand new town in a brand new school, and I had turned fifteen just a month earlier. The first time I heard Fifteen it felt like she was speaking directly to me. It wasn’t a song to me, it was like a letter from a wise older sister. I was lonely in Montana, alone without my best friend, and struggling to connect with the kids in my school. But with Fearless, I didn’t feel so alone anymore. And I was struggling, but that was okay.
I begged my dad to buy me tickets to see Taylor Swift at Madison Square Garden in New York - since I was going home to New York to see my best friend. We didn’t have a lot of money back then; in fact we had no money for things like going to see Taylor Swift back then, so it felt like just one of those far away distant dreams that would never really happen and very slowly I decided I had to get over it, at least I was going to New York to see my best friend. And then, as I recall the date and night shockingly well, April 16th 2009, my dad came home from work and handed me an envelope with two tickets to Taylor Swift’s show at Madison Square Garden and it was like being handed my biggest dream in corporeal form. It was on August 27th, 2009, and our seats were, in retrospect, “okay”, but when I was actually there it felt like they were the best seats in the entire stadium, and nobody else in the stadium existed, and every day I think about how blessed and lucky I was to not only go see Taylor at all, but also to stand in her presence while she sang Fifteen, seemingly only to me, when I really was Fifteen. It was the most wonderful night of my life to be with my best friend and to have my dream come true.
And then I went home to Montana. I remember when I got off the plane I was wearing my yellow Fearless tour shirt I had gotten at the concert and I cried in the car but tried to pretend like I wasn’t crying because I wanted to go home. Not “home” to horrible Montana but home to my best friend’s bedroom and home to see Taylor again, but I couldn’t go there again. Not until next summer.
Sophomore year passed and I went home to New York for Katie’s sweet 16 party, and it was a surprise from her sister that I was coming, but her mom had spilled the beans to her so there was no surprise. The trip lasted only 3 days and I went back to Montana. It was April again; I got off the plane in New York in April and it was warm and humid. I got off the plane in Montana in April and it was cold and windy and terrible and I cried again.
The summer before Junior year, Taylor announced the news about her 3rd album, and she said Sparks Fly would be on it and I cried then, too, and it was the first time I can remember crying so hard from happiness. Junior year began with 2 months until Speak Now came out and every day passed agonizingly slow. I met Autumn that year. Speak Now came out 15 days after my 17th birthday; we had Speech class that year and we had to do improvisational speeches and I gave two of mine about Speak Now. In early October I was asked to give a devotional - relating something back to faith (I go to Catholic school) and I chose the Fearless album and got in front of my entire class, of only 16 kids, and told them what I told you about Fearless and Taylor Swift. It changed my life. And it was the first time I realized that my new dream, the biggest one, was to meet Taylor in person and tell her the same. I cried that time too, only I didn’t pretend I wasn’t, in front of everyone, and no one was surprised. With 13 days left until Speak Now came out, I made goody bags for everyone filled with kit kats and Hersey’s kisses and I printed out quotes Taylor had said about songs that would be on the album (Back To December, Story of Us, and Sparks Fly) and put them inside too.
On October 24th at 10 PM I was watching Halloweentown, and then at 11:30 PM I was at Wal Mart waiting. No one else was there but me and at Midnight I bought my two copies of Speak Now and went home and listened to it alone in my room until 4 in the morning, when I fell asleep with Long Live on repeat, and then I woke up to the sound of my cats having sex UNFORTUNATELY. And Speak Now was wonderful and perfect and Last Kiss hurt like a physical wound and Back To December made me so proud of her and Dear John was, to me, the strongest song she had ever written. Strong for herself, and strong in sound. By Thanksgiving I knew it all and Autumn was my close friend.
That Christmas I got a text from my best friend saying her sister had gotten her 2 tickets to the Speak Now tour in Boston and that she wanted me to go with her - my parents had money to send me to New York without a problem now. And so the months went by and by and by and we planned every thing - we had our outfits planned, we had our gifts to Taylor planned. We were getting into T party if it killed us and it felt like my biggest dream was coming true, again. And then on June 3rd, a terrible date in Gilmore Girls and terrible date in my own life and that’s the truest and most dramatic thing I’ve ever said, Katie texted me and told me that we wouldn’t be able to go see Taylor after all. And from that moment everything in my life just kind of stopped being okay and I went to New York but didn’t see Taylor and somehow the bitterness sparked a huge fight between me and my best friend and we didn’t talk after that, and I got home to Montana and Autumn was away in Texas and Katie wasn’t speaking to me and my parents sprung on me that we were moving and all of a sudden I was 15 again. And it was lonely again. It was a terrible Summer. And the date of the concert I was supposed to go to passed. And it was wonderful that it was the best concert on the tour - the date at Gillette stadium where it started to rain during Fearless. The Sparks Fly video came out where half the footage was from that exact show. Once again, I told myself to get over it.
The point of this and why I’m posting it on Thanksgiving is because Taylor has been there since I was 13. Look back and see how some of the biggest events in my life have centered around Taylor Swift, and even when they didn’t, she was there in the background. And I’m 18 now and she’s still there, I’ve never been more thankful for anything in my life. And so what if I didn’t get to see her this time, I’m going to her next tour and as I live and breathe I will meet her and tell her what made me cry in front of my class that one in Speech.
every single lyric I contributed was a Taylor Swift lyric
my team won because of me
I’M DOING IT AGAIN PUMPKIN BREAD + PUMPKIN SPICE LATTE TRY AND STOP ME YOU CAN’T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!1!!!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#@$!#
There is nothing I do better than harass my teachers with papers and reports and presentations about Taylor Swift every chance I get
I’m even stapling the lyrics to this one when I turn it in
We used to have all these woods around my house and I would go galavant in the woods and man what I wouldn’t give to go back to those woods today
but anyway, so I was in the woods one day
and I look over and there’s an old man staring at me like at the edge of the woods
and I froze
and just stood there
hoping he’d think I was just an old man hallucination
and he stared at me
it must’ve been 20 minutes before I got the courage to just walk away.
We got out of art class early and it was like me and Autumn Austin and the other Austin and Sonja and Amy.
And Autumn and I like went into Mr. Meckley’s classroom because he wasn’t in there
and Autumn started writing something on the board
so then I wrote in giant letters “THE CHAMBER OF SECRETS HAS BEEN OPENED” and lol’d about it and then Autumn lol’d and then we ran out of the room
and then as I was running out of the classroom
and my ankle twisted
and everyone saw and was laughing
and in the moment it didn’t hurt that bad
but I like crawled away and all of a sudden I was like “yup lol my foot’s fucked up”
I knew it would be a good day.
AND P.E. THIS YEAR SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE’S LIKE “OH YEAH EVERY FRIDAY WE’RE GONNA RUN A MILE AND A HALF”
AND WE’RE ALL LOOKING AT EACH OTHER LIKE “UM?”
FIRST OF ALL
I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE RAN A MILE AND A HALF
I’VE RAN A MILE MANY TIMES
BUT AFTER A MILE I CONK OUT AND DIE
I WILL NOT DO A MILE AND A HALF
AND EVERYBODY ELSE FEELS THE EXACT SAME WAY
I’M NOT DOING THIS SHIT
I’M OKAY WITH DOING THE OTHER 2 HIKES UP THE MOUNTAIN
BUT I WILL NOT
I mean basically the story is I had thought, after we were supposed to go to the Taylor show and then couldn’t for some mysterious reason, that she was planning to slink off to see Taylor without me, and without telling me, 2 weeks after I left New York, because I read on her calender like on July 20th “Taylor Swift at MSG” and I got so pissed the fuck off for more reasons than just that there were surrounding events that contributed to my anger and I took to my personal password protected blog to rant about it because I mean that’s what I do when I’m mad, and I said nothing about it to her
then I never logged off my tumblr
so she had full access to my pw protected blog after I left
and she went on it and read every thing I said about her and got really upset
but I mean the thing is like every thing I said in those posts I made on that day were just posts I made in bitterness and anger and I took it all back in a later post, and NOBODY, not just her, was meant to see it or read it so I mean
I was pretty uncensored you know
and I don’t really think it’s fair that she’s THIS mad at me about it
Here’s what happened.
She got about halfway through my nose with the needle
and I was flipping out
and then for whatever reason I started to run away and she let go
and there was just this giant needle sticking out of my nose
and I was screaming
“GET THIS FUCKING NEEDLE OUT OF MY NOSE, GET THIS THE FUCK OUT OF MY NOSE”
then when it came to Autumn’s nose she pierced the skin but got too scared to go any deeper
now we just have scars on our noses
It’s not, it’s just a sty, but it’s still fucking gross and I hate it
Him and his fiancee left and then my mom was like “I NEED A DRINK!!!” and her and my dad went to the bar
so guess what
ALL THE PIE IS FOR ME
1.) Emma Stone winning! I love her okay
2.) Tom Felton winning best villain AGAIN he is number one
3.) Taylor / Robert kiss of course
4.) Robert Pattinson’s truly heartfelt speech to Reese
5.) Emma Watson every time she came up. She is lovely and elegant and I wish she had won something!
6.) NICKI FUCKING MINAJ EVERY TIME I SAW HER FACE OH SHE’S A BAD BITCH. WHEN SHE DID HER LITTLE VOICE I SCREAMED OKAY I SCREAMED
7.) Andrew Garfield of course. I voted for The Social Network I’d just like to say.
“YOU’RE NOT GETTING MARRIED IN THE CHURCH????????????????????????????? YOU’RE NOT GETTING MARRIED IN THE CHURCH????????? ARE YOU PLANNING ON BAPTIZING YOUR CHILDREN??????”
“YES MOM WE ARE PLANNING ON THAT”
“WELL GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE WHEN YOU’RE NOT MARRIED IN THE CHURCH YOU CAN’T BAPTIZE YOUR CHILDREN IN THE CHURCH! DID YOU THINK THAT THROUGH??????? ARE YOU PREGNANT?????????? ARE YOU PREGNANT????????????????????????????????????????????????????”
“NO ONE IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”